I am going through a difficult phase in my marriage. For years I have been pushing aside my feelings for women and I am now in a position where I cannot ignore it anymore. I seem to fall in love endlessly, I have to work hard at hidding it and not doing anything about it...then I am left to deal with the heartbreak. I feel a bit like the only gay in the village and would like to meet other mums in my situation. My husband does not know about it, we spoke about separting but he said it would be an open war if I choose to leave, so for now my best option is to stay.